& feeling down.

I thought this week would be better..but so far it’s going back to normal. I know it’s only Wednesday,but If I feel this crappy right now. It just get worse by the weekend.

It sucks loving & caring for someone that just sees you as a friend.

now I’m home laying down…

I need to get more hours at work to keep my mind off things. I rather be working & making money,then being home & over thinking.
Then by the time I know it,I’ll have a car and be able to go places I wouldn’t be able to go. Hopefully soon.

Consist of me laying down all day.
No one to talk or hangout out with >_

So someone I know told me yesterday that I need to be checked. As in go look for a therapist. I didn’t take it in a bad way because she was being honest with me & obviously cares. But,I don’t think I can do that. It would be weird & embarrassing for me.

Hmm ya I don’t know..I am always feeling down & shitty. Kind of like right now.

This past half year sucked.

Just because I’m stuck to someone that i don’t want to give up on.

I try to live my own life and drink,go to shows,have fun. But, every day/night your the only individual I think of. I wake up early in the morning in tears with my heart hurting. Sorry to my followers of you read this and seem like I’m an idiot about this girl. Straight up,it’s the truth. I deleted her number many times,deactivated my Facebook cuz I don’t want to bother & know too much about the shit she does. Then again,it’s really hard for me to give up on a person that I thought would be with me for along time :/
I truly do love you…& if you honestly don’t then tell me so I can move on in my life.
Then again sorry if people are reading this….it ain’t your Peddo so don’t trip.

-227